thoughts

I know now that I was right to be afraid to go there... (...)
It was a dream.

But is better that I found out now and not then, for Im stronger now to accept it.
And to realize that the waiting will be long, longer than I thought.
Longer than I can control.

de Reformé

Marx, Nietzsche, Freud ou Durkheim ont, chacun à leur manière, montré que nous ne sommes pas transparents à nous-mêmes. Nous ne sommes pas ce que nous sommes parce que nous l’avons choisi mais en raison des forces économiques, de l’inévitabilité historique, du conditionnement de la prime enfance ou du déterminisme de la structure sociale. Ces forces cachées nous influencent d’autant plus qu’elles sont dissimulées. Si nous sommes invités à prendre conscience de ces déterminations, notre expérience intime nous dit aussi que nous ne pouvons être réduits à ces conditionnements, qu’irréductiblement demeure en nous la liberté de négocier avec ces influences.

mama mercedes y la niña amarilla

esta amargura tiene tus sombrios ojos
y exactamente el color de tu cabello
la fragilidad insegura de tu paso
y el mismo tono de tu voz
el abandono de tus manos
y toda la la triste ternura de tu sonrisa

Esta amargura,
esta infinita amargura, tiene tu nombre:
MERCEDES

...

Si tu estuvieras viva, sabria que alguien me esta esperando, que me ama sin reservas, ni condiciones, que me acepta como soy y convierte mis defectos en virtudes, mis fealdades en belleza, mi ignorancia en total sabiduria... Pero ya te enterre e incomprnsiblemente aun respito en algun lugar del mundo.

(Gloria Apareci-Sena)

Rebecca's experince at L'abri

'So why Christianity and not some other religion?' I furthered. I already knew my answer, but I felt it worth asking. Dawn answered, 'Christianity reflects the reality of this world, the reality of the brokenness of this world. It gives us answers that no other religion can, answers that deal with our brokenness.' And I added, 'In other words, as John Stott says,' only the figure of Jesus deals with our sin.'

I added...

When people say that Christianity is a kind of evasion from reality, an “opium”, the weakness of those unable to face life, remember what you’ve just written about Christianity being a true reflection of the reality of this world, and especially the reality of our brokenness, and our imperfection as humans beings. It deals with our sinful nature, and also with our desire for goodness, and our value, because Christianity understands humanity as glorious God-like creation yet tragically fallen, with precise balance.

verdades que se descubren solamente en la nostalgia

...necesito un/a amigo/a al estilo argentino. Hablaba tanto la gente en argentina, hablaban por todo, todo el tiempo, juntarse a charlar era la acividad mas constante y la mas disponible. Y ademas era tan facil...

from Dawn's lecture

... my wound is an unanswered question. the wound of our humanity are unanswered questions.

where are You in this darkness?
I learnt to spy you in the light, here in this darkness I cannot find you! If I've never looked for you, or looked but never found, I will not feel this pain of your absence.

Or is it not your absence in which I dwell?

are my eyes just to this darkness?
will I find you in the dark, not in the strips of light that you have made, but in the darkness?